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its still not the same..
i guess it might never be..

i miss u ... pjk
amd i wanna go zouk

we used to nua tgt everyday..
we used to eat tgt everyday..
we used to listen to music and play games tgt..
we used to hang out wif each other's classmates and friends..
we used to meet each other everyday to the extend that nv meet feel odd..
we used to know all of each other's secrets..
we used to talk about the activities that we are going to do tgt..
we used to talk about how a friendship is like a relationship which takes the commitment of 2 parties..
we used to talk about everything under the sun...

and i remembered how we USED to feel comfortable..
what about now...
days passed by without msges, without chats, without laughters tgt..
and are u not even bothering to find out why??

there are good friends
there are best friends
there are all sort of friends
but there isnt forever friends..

now i understand yet again...
shes amazing..
gods gift...

Labels: i love you

what makes people differ from one another is how their brains function..
thats y we can nv find 2 people who are exactly quite the same.
cos we dun share brains... we might jus be brought up in similar ways..

today i went back to play a friendly for NYP...
alot of thoughts came to me.. i guess i feel ***********D

i remembered all of my IVP games...
when in my first year.. how we were touched when NYP only won NTU by a single point..
how tears of joy were shed..
and how lessons were learnt..

i remembered how jing hui wanna kill herself when she tot the last ball scored by yayun was counted...i remembered how we jumped in joy....
and when everyone send every msges saying how proud we were of NYP team.. and boys got second tt year.. which is very good.. 14 years nv enter semi.. also break record le..

second year of IVP was even more special to me becos i got to play..
of cos it wasnt easy... it was stressful becos to me, the team cannot lose becos of mistakes i made... in the end we gt second in the year.. losing to NTU by 7 points.. we shed tears when we lost.. becos the score was close, the memories were incredible.. how we trained SEVEN DAYS A WEEK.. and how jing hui had to come trg even though she had outside team, U20 team trainings plus NYP trainings... it was an overall incredible season... becos we did better den we were exected to be.. i will always remember... jinghui msging the team sayign how proud she felt of us.. and coach msging me to tell me to be not depressed anymore.. little actions.. but 100% heart warming..
im blessed..

grace.. we are lucky... we got to be lead by the best and in turn learn to lead the team.. sorry for my tantrums.. i dun think i could have survived if not for yr encouragements and yr tolerance of my nonsense.. and the reason i always go for trainings and i tried to play well is becos of u.. i cant disappoint u too much becos i see how hard u trained EVERYTIME....i think u are amazing.. seriously.. if u get wat i mean.. still im sorry becos i think i did disappoint u in the end.. LOL...

now i finally understood the things that jing hui told me...
and i really learnt alot of things during the year... in character building wise..

TAN YA QI... new captain of NYP jia you...
dun disappoint coach okay... is she ask me to hand over to u one... =P
i know u can do it.. anything wo ding ni!!!
haha becos i heart u la... jia you jia you jia you

and the end of the story, i love tan ya qi qif ALL of my heart..

Labels: capabilities and readiness, responsibilities

i got no money to go and see black eye peas concert today! aw... DANG....
haha becos i love fergie la....

im fucking tired... becos i woke up at 630 am today!!
and tml too... wo bu xin le....

work work work.. = no life..

haiz.. hope i can provide for my own driving license... but i jus dun have the money... need to slog...

and i miss pau jin kuang badly.... haiz..

i dun understand why.. but shi qing jiu shi zhe yang...
suo yi wo hen bu shuang...
WO BU SHUANG!!!!

hahaha i dun understand wat im indulging in either...
and tml is sunday... yeah... i wanna do smth which i wanna do...
such as eat smth nice or go to the place i wanna go... =)
so now im going to find some company...

wo xi wang wo hen you qian...
wo ye xi wang wo hen kai xin..
wo xi wang im a rich spoilt pampered kid!!
and xi wang = hope in english...
pray that miracles happens...

and im thinking... that if studying in SIM is sudying private,
i think i might go overseas to study... afterall... its only 3 months left in polytechnic education... and im still not ready to go outside... this kind of things makes me tao yan life....aw... sucks.

Labels: money money money

i dun think i would wanna keep this inside me anymore...
i feel so disgraced- disgraceful...
i feel that im such a let down..
i feel so unlucky...
i feel so sick of being this..

and i wish sorry would really make things up...
and wow... its such a relieve... to let it go..

as i was sitting on my com desk, i saw a stack of rupiah beside me..
one STACK.
omg..... haha... the value kan little loh.. waste my money sia..

ohh... i wan to go to meiji factory... though its at jurong east... hah!
but den think of all the chocs and biscuits i can buy... yummy...
hmm.... jurong east is not tt far la....

ytd went to SING kbox wif hui xian... we started at like 7.30 and we sing till 1.30.. we sang 6 hours...
for jus 10 BUCKS...
wee u weeet.. song lo... cos kbox got promo...
but i missed ice3 wif yan... aw.. i wanna ice cube too.. hahaha
anyway... i sang till my throat was about to burst... zzz
biao all those gao ying... LOLs
oh.. and her fav.... new year songs... i swear she know all by heart.. eewey...

after singing we bao pontian wanton mee back to my hse and eat... and she went home at 6 on the morning..
i was like shag now.. lol.. lack of slp...
and i love k box when it only cos 10 bucks.... for 6 hours.. =)

FRIENDS....
i always know i am a sucky fren..
haha dun ask me why or how come.. i jus am...
and i knew it.. =(

i still got one bloody month of holidays..
and i am so bored at home..
i dunno what to do... becos.. simply i jus cannot find anyone to accompany me.... all in sch or FYP or attachment.. zzz
aww... and i got no money to register for my TP exams..
haha..

im so bored now... =(

hmm...
im ok
okay..
not pain
not pain..

phew... it feels so much better..

Labels: and i know im lying to myself.. but it helps.

haha... today got a disappointment..
that is i kana ps.. but nvm..
so i asked weng lisheng to play mahjong..
and hao bu rong yi.. we found 4 persons...
at the end of the session, i won 24 bucks that is so by luck...
andi still tot we playing 10 cent 20 cent....
LOL fainted..
we went to the prata shop after tt...
and yeah.. going out wif di and her fiance tml... =)

SIBEI DULAN!!!
TMD....
K810i exist in red colour loh....! damnation...
and i think its nice la... i wan~~~~~~~~~
kns kns kns.....
K810i EXISTS IN RED... so unfair!!!!

i think i wanna trade in my phone.. i dun care.. i wan red phone.....
and another TMD....
got one more new walkman phone... W960i..
chee bong... walkman phone but 3.2 megapixel camera... for wat sia...
like tt my cybershot.. 400 dollars...

ARGH TMD.... u see why im angry now?!?! 8gb memory card la....
KNS
wo bu kai xin!!!!!! qi si wo ler....

Labels: red k810i

swee!
went balling wif the mates today and it was FUN!
haha i love to make new frens and hang out wif frens... woohoo...

and i realise tt a way of letting go the past is to make new frens..
swee!
oh ya.. and i while i was bathing today, i thought about opportunities..
irregardless of watever all things depends on opportunity..
hmm i lazy to elaborate le... chaos.. and im happy these few days...

wait wait...
its jus difficult for me...
i hate you.....
to the max

i cant fall asleep
i cant fall asleep
i cant fall asleep
i cant fall asleep

and im fucking tired.... =(

wo bu kai xin
wo bu kai xin
wo bu kai xin!!!!!

TMD

argh... priscilla loo got to stop whiming and whining!!!
hmm today marks the end of my final IVP..
and omg.. unbelievably we lost all 3 matches...
wth... its my fault...
anyway i finally get to step down.. =) phew its a relieve...

to the mates anyway..
i know most of u worked really hard and i can see the efforts..
im kind of glad tt some bothered to put in the effort..
hmm continue to improve ba.. good luck for the rest of the seasons..
and please show yr nxt captain the respect she deserves....
most imptly please listen to coach... and remember the things she say... =)

yess!!! finally play time.. renmei and yawen wait for me.... i will choing my GPA coming sem!!!

i shall not be afraid to dribble and do one on ones today...

i jus fucking cant get to sleep...
and my headpain is killing me..
everytime i closed my eyes and when i lie on my bed,
i dun feel peaceful at all...

where has peace gone to...
and i haven been able to sleep well for days on end!!
wtf...
now i finally understand wat coach mean by not being able to get to sleep...

there are so many things that i wanted to say...
but they can only be kept in my heart..
its heart wrenching..
now i understand...

and good habits are hard to come by while bad habits are damn easy to cultivate..
i have to remember my good habits.. i have them i know...
when i see people having bad habits, it doesnt mean i have to learn to be like them.. stick to my own good habits... and follow what i was taught. and my beliefs... i cant disappoint coach again...
in simpler terms, it means
when i see ppl eat shit i dun have to follow them to eat it too...

i need to build a better character... its my own...
congratulations to NP for winning NYP..
you guys deserve it.. =)

what happened?!

wu nai..

Labels: :)

living life sucks..
becos i sucks..
resulting in pris being sucky...

Labels: Fuck with capital F

the girls are cheering for me.. i know it.. its going to be a good game for me...
i wanna do well..

becos its NUS
becos its my last IVP for nyp..
now i know how much it means.. no mistakes....

i love the girls...
who train tgt wif me..
who cheered me on..
who will be there to pick me up..

becos i know.. we are going to bring back victory..
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y

TMD!!
zhao zhi dao wo bu yao qu xue che...
qi si wo le...

i tried to register for TP test online but the fucking database cannot find my ID... damn.. so diff to register... dunno how yan yan make one...
somemore its KAN ex.... ARGH..... kill me......
=(

zhao ren zai bu shi hao... xue shen mo che....
TMD.... qi si wo le!
and im damn tired cos i only slp for like 3 hours... zzz and went for trg..
almost died...

i wan to go......

1. soup spoon - yummilicious clam chowder!
2. haato ridgewood - waffles ice creams and board games
3. aglio olio - garlic olive pasta
4. sentosa - take luge, view songs of the sea and play.
5. raffles city - donut factory.
6. zouk - mambo jumbo
7. MOS - new experience
8. arab street - shopping for new cool things.
9. bugis street - shop again
10. orchard - to chill of cos!!
11. play street ball - how can i leave it out.
13. ice3
14. geylang - eat dou hua
15. ahtars - and i miss their prata...

=(
see im deprived....

Elaine Thng

if yr lips got so sexy i go kiss u!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=nUcu_Q9op8Q

hahha...

oh ya... and in the previous entry i forget to complain smth...
DAMN!!! everyone is going overseas can... kns!!! and i didnt go...

damn... nxt week, bird xiu hui irene louis ziqing goign thailand for 2 weeks!!!
den nxt nxt week- weng lisheng going thailand also!
AND dec... tan yiwen going (THAILAND AGAIN) wif lidyinn and YS
lim hui fang jus came back from bintan!!

NOT FAIR!!!! ALL NV ASK ME!!!!!!!
TA MA DE!!! wo angry!!!!! bu kai xin bu kai xin ....
rich asses.....

wahaha... but to console myself, huixian's YP got chicken pox... worse... cant even go out...

and to amend for my mistake.. sorry weng lisheng only take TP 4 times to pass not 8.. he corrected me ytd... haha!!
thats all ~

Labels: i think i finished complaining that is

hmm.. im blogging.. haha and life sucks..
cos tml is wed and no one wans to go zouk wif me... damn!
and sch is reopening soon.. like 15 of oct for the rest of the guys.. like tt whr got ppl acc me!! not fair!!! i got holidays leh..... *whining*

haha... kns!!
trg is fun today.. cos when we play 2 on 2, i team wif yan yan and chuen fat fat..
haha!! and after tt when we are about to have 3 on 3, i team wif qi and fat again! woo shiok... wo very kai xin loh!! but b4 we even played we changed team.. and the lights went off.. so aw....

anyway i decided i wanted to detox my body.. cos my big and small intestines really dun feel good.. LOL.. and detox will have to start on this fri.. cos thurs i go eat hao liao.. cannot jie kou... hahaha!!!

detox programme will comprise of eating only fruits and vege... and it will last for 3 days... haha wish me success..

ohya.. and elaine.. stop going around jim-ing ppl okay!! LOLS.. i cannot take it....