Independency

2008-07-22T04:25:00.000-07:00

ever lost smth.. and then realise tt tts really what you actually wanted..
and being angry at yourself because u didnt try and u gave up.. =)
well its contradicting..

i wondered why i didnt even try..
and eventually i concluded...
that its because im afraid...
since when??

i wish im much more braver...
anyhow.. i know its a good ending..
the moral way
the way ppl would be pleased
the way i got hurt the least..

2008-04-17T21:41:00.000-07:00

i SHIFTED to

www.priscillaloola.livejournal.com

please relink. ty

2008-04-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

back from tioomann....

and......

fell in love with the fendi spy bag (replica)

which is THIS!

and this is the light blue version..

can see the difference?

i think the light blue one looks nicer... but kind of dun suit me... blue one like more style and attitude... eventually i might get the light blue one..

and it cost $56.

this looks semi decent too...

this is the REAL AUTHENTIC FENDI SPY BAG

it cost bloody 4980USD.

thanks! =D

Chloe pillow bag (in red)

is looks like HOT pink to me...

and i think its CUTE..

i wanna get a new urban male bag which cost 170..

i wanna get a fossil leather strap super vintage old school watch at 150 plus (i think - dare not check out price..)

i fell in love with a CK watch - $250

and and....

i need more make up and skincare...

toner

tinted moisturiser

night cream

essence or serum

eye and face mask

liquid eyeliner

make up brushes

brow definer

eye shadow

wa... fierce man...

oh ya....

pink or green havanese slippers too

and my metro pink phone... yet to get =(

can u imagine...

im saving up for a taiwan trip nxt march.. - 2500 at least!!

thinking of all these makes me tired..

yawns..

ohya..

i shaped my brows!

LOL

please tell me why the FENDI SPY BAG cost such a bomb...

i jus want the plain one... not the one wif the intricate designs...

2008-04-08T10:47:00.000-07:00

emotions could be man's greatest fren or enemy.

yeah... going tioman wif peh seng yong!!
u better better make sure there are tics for us...
if not im going to be damn angry!!!!
hahahahah....

i wan to CAMP at some seaside!!!
i feel like watching movie...
i wanna buy LV hampstead...
i wanna rot at home...
i wan w580i metro pink!..

yes and you ppl... if anything please contact me via the HP..
thanks

2008-04-06T10:45:00.000-07:00

NABEH

2008-04-02T12:35:00.000-07:00

i cant wait for sch to start soon...
so that i can stop rotting at home, have money.. enjoy life..
damn it... how i wish sch has no exams, test or projects..
so tt we can jus enjoy life...

omg im 20... its time to speak and act responsible.. (yeah crap coming from me)
i being to realise that life is indeed very practical...
or is it jus me being very practical and material...

whats meant to last and whats not...
and like i said b4 umpteen times...
if how much we use, eat, drink everyday is predestinied, why is there a need to work hard...

so contradicting... stupid right....

what has been said to last will never be...
what had been, had been and never return..
these are facts
and my only best fren is countable assets..

2008-04-02T11:15:00.000-07:00

money, diamonds, jewellery and branded goods are a girl's best friend..
sorry.. correction - my best friends.. =D

list of i wants.:
1. sony ericsson w580i in metro pink
2. LV damier canvas hampstead pm in white
3. LV monogram palermo pm
4. LV wallet
5. make up remover
6. toner
7. facial essence or serum
8. night moisturiser
9. masks!
10. thailand/taiwan trip
11. SAVINGS..
12. haircut
13. facial treatment
14. CK watch

WTF adding up the amount..
i think got more than 5000..
if i only buy one LV i think also need 2000 to settle the rest...
shit...
i derperately desperately desperately need a job....

im sad and depressed...
omg..

i wan to go for jap class...
and ACCA..
god please rain money....

2008-03-31T12:46:00.000-07:00

i know im pathetic...
but i cant help it....

i cannot stop myself from spending....
and i wanna bloody get the citibank credit card...
but its bloody hell troublesome....

hmm..
i bought 3 new dresses!!
one pair of heels!
one bag?
3 eyeliner.
1 blusher.
10 packs of mask...
still got whats not?
i cant remember alr...

OMG.... WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ME....
im fucking broke now....
retail therapy... sighs

driving lesson tml...
i hope i dun get scolded... so nervous...
haven been driving for a long long time..
and im seriously shagged now...

if u could have a superhero ability, what would yrs be??
i would like to be able to read minds....

what does yr world, yr life revolves around?
i guess mine revolves round money...

why friends dont stay??
becos i nv keep them or ask them to...

is it true?
i guess im not too sure too...

anymore interesting qns??
i wan to earn money!!!!
money!!!!!!!
--------------------------------------
its a decision to be free...
being bedraggled dun change anything..
treat it as loneliness

2008-03-25T13:55:00.000-07:00

sibei sian..
no money..
no job..
no bf..

over this week i bought 2 dresses and a pair of heels..
i decided to collect 30 dresses by the end of this year.. and shall be reviewed upon during CHRISTMAS (my fav season, festival of the year..)

i shall collect shoes too.. but they spoil and some have to be thrown away..
so decided to give up on the idea.. an average of 15 pairs of shoes will be okay.. hmm mayb 20...

okay... this sounds bimbotic.. and the rest of the post will be continuing in this manner...
okay... CHOOSE:

1. swatch watch or CK watch.
2. LV bag or Gucci bag.
3. LV wallet or Gucci wallet

see i have got all the wants!!!
damn... need MONEY and a bloody job to sustain....

ohya.. in recent days, lizard and roach were found in the room...
horrible...
and i dunno where is dirty... damn turn off...
i really hate the built in furniture of my room... I HATE!!!..
no choice thry were fixed and no way can be removed...
cos no money... and if renovate, no place to slp...
what a lousy idea... built in.. zzzz

i really really WANT TO GET A SUPER NICE WATCH...
and i spotted a few... so bloody sad....
LV purse is super nice... =(
and to report, i think i spend 100 this week.. zzzz
FUCKING BROKE.
cmi... zzzz..
tt street killed me... thanks!

2008-03-22T10:23:00.000-07:00

why?
why again??
why?

2008-03-22T10:18:00.000-07:00

emotions are so bearable...

2008-03-22T10:00:00.000-07:00

WHERE ARE ALL THE BEST FRENS...

i missed u guys all of a sudden...
and i jus miss u guys...

FYI: i only got 2 best frens....

Note: Attention Please

2008-03-22T09:58:00.001-07:00

I want to buy a watch in first week of April..

which kind soul wans to chip in..
please contact me via the HP...
9185**##

2008-03-21T12:25:00.000-07:00

I love money!~
I love money!~
I love money!~
I love money!~
I love money!~

i love myself!!

2008-03-19T11:44:00.000-07:00

i dunno what to do...
whats yes and whats not...
=(

2008-03-18T22:43:00.000-07:00

i decided to call my driving instructor tml to book for my driving lessons... twice per week... zzzz

why did i fail the first TP.. zzzzz

haha!!! nvm.. i must pass this time!!!!
damn it....
aw... gonna be super super super poor now...
damn it.. i hate asking for money from the parents

2008-03-18T10:59:00.000-07:00

im seriously bored like shit now..
and there like nth for me to do...

it feels shiok to have finally exercised
though it was some netball wif huixian..
hey its worth playing for her okay..
cos i understand passion ( for those of you who dun!! )
though im sorry i sucked at it and still i hao lianed.. LOL..

i realised i can still run... haha..
and basketball is indeed more tiring den netball...
idk y...

after exercising, my body genuinely feels like my body again..
not like some alien body which i feel i have been living in for the past months...
its woo..~

and i wanna go for running...
that is if im not too lazy to run...
running is good...
shed FATS...
and dun be surprised when i say im having a float around my stomach...
ZZZZZZ if u get what i mean ( you yong quan )

im seriously crapping cos im jus too BORED
and idk y

2008-03-18T10:57:00.000-07:00

jus in case i forgets
and i dun wan to forget,

we knew each other on the 7th of march and a friday...
and so we should really celebrate every friday of the week...

LOL...
how lame was tt!!

YOU BETTER MAKE SURE U REMEMBER...!

2008-03-17T11:59:00.001-07:00

is there a kind of medicine or an eraser which can take away parts of our memory??
someone please get it for me...
i beg...

(the above is a shout-out... IM WILLING TO PAY!!!)

i went to sing KTV again today and my throat felt like they were giving up on me... zzzz
i love the song 七情六欲..
its so bloody old sch... i love...

koh xiao qing... y do u need to have attachments!!!
if not i bet we will be pigging out the entire hols....
PIGGING OUT!!!
i love.... IDK WHY...
EH save money go overseas!!
i want!!!

sidetrack...
has the world given up on me or have i gave up the world...
im jus so screwed EVERYDAY.. yeah...
tell me what to do to screw things further ...
yeah... im a pawn... of fucking who knows who or what..
im a pawn..
did life choose you? or did u choose life??
its such a irony...

and its raining now... on a tuesday after midnight...
i wan to know what really happened.....

2008-03-13T13:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes, really just sometimes,
i jus wan to find out the truth...
and know if i was just being used...

i wan to know...
but in a way not knowing would be much better..
ain't it...
and also... truth may not be whats it seems to be...

in a way the truth will nv be found...
and mayb the truth has already been found but not accepted..
u get what i mean...
afterall, it jus leads to whether u choose to believe in which...
which again leads to, life is once again all about believing..
which is such a big turn off...
hai... sian...

i hate to BELIEVE...
i jus dun wan to choose...
even turing a blind eye to things is a choice...
its sick and scary...

2008-03-11T13:25:00.000-07:00

how to miss u when i dun...
how to not miss u when i do...

im not deprived...
but i dun have nor do i deserve the rights...

the rights to anything at all...
as in completely at all.

how to feel lost when im not...
how to feel safe when im lost..

i feel that right now... at this point of time, life is a dream...
a big fat dream...
why do i still blog when its exposed...
when everything, all feelings and thoughts are exposed...

this is confusing...
when will i choose to end all these contradiction
when will i finally choose to face the truth that i have been avoiding
when will i be willing to wake up from dreams and face reality
when will i stop escapingwhen will the end of these be

does it really lies in my hands, or do fate exist...
hello fate... are u there
destiny.. u there??
i wanna be your friend...
if everything is really PRE-DESTINIED, why bother to work hard when how much u earn, how much u can enjoy has all alr been decided by whom u dunno... whats the fucking point...

THATS Y I NEVER BELIEVED!!!

2008-03-10T08:32:00.001-07:00

thanks to all those who loved me...
i see and felt it...
i know and i appreciated in my heart...

but im sorry becos im bad, i bailed
and im sorry for all the things i did...

but saying sorry doesnt right any wrongs....

2008-03-09T14:26:00.001-07:00

omg... i dunno y i still cannot fully understand and accept...

but those things mentioned, those feeling felt..
there wasnt a word i can use to describe the level of coincidence?
(coincidence is too lousy a word to use in this context)

omg.. i was bedazzled, bedraggled..
throughly amazed... no wonder u felt connection
(though it was eery)

so now... whats true whats not...

fuck...
LOVE is too big a word, too hard a game for pure little nice girls to partake..

how long more is all this going to take??
something please take everything away..

2008-03-09T13:25:00.000-07:00

this post has been re-typed..
becos i haven been able to express my emotions well in the last try..

thanks to the ppl who made today special for me...
i really appreciated... esp (u know who u are,all those who came.)
i really felt like a princess... =)

my heart goes out to those ppl who:
1. have no heart
2. have no principles
3. have no conscious
4. have no sense
5. have not abit of good in them

becos there might be karma ( though i dun really believe but there might be)
these ppl should be pitied on becos they have failed in their own lifespan as a human...
FAILED terribly..

u can be stupid, u can be poor.. but u cannot have anyone of the above mentioned..
its somehow true when people spoke of animals having more humanity den some humans... i really got to agree this time..

i really hope what i have been saying is understood... becos it has several layers of meanings... and different ppl would perceive it in a different way... but however... they are jus mere thoughts and i am able to take responsibility for them...
( lol weird right )

it is true when people say "when you lost something, you will gain something back in return. "
i totally got to agree..

the first time i lose someone so impt to me.. i realised i gained frens who had loved me more then i had ever loved them or loved myself...
they stood by me... cheered me on.. forgive my wrongs... pull me back to life...
and that is when i realise frens are impt and they are for LIFE...
i learnt becos i saw the value of friendship..
thats y i say y some frens are more impt den others....

this time... i found a good friend, a possible sister and i realised the importance of sisterhood and how untrustworthy ppl can actually be...
these are impt and valueable lessons... i am taught nv to be so guillable again... and to have absolute trust in my own instincts... becos they are so accurate...

ppl grow when they meet setbacks and i wan to continue growing to become a stronger, smarter woman...
as in pagan religion, we should really worship the sacrecy of feminity and womanhood... ( i know i sound sick, what pagan religon, its a kind of religion.. )
because i sincerely believe that women are amazing creatures... (100% amazing)
most wonderful creation on earth..
in handphone terms, women should be called "men i"
hahaha improvised version... wif better functions and mayb better appearance..
get?

lol i have so much to say.. so much so much so so much.. so i will continue ranting...

and yeap... wif increasing cases of cheats, failed marriages, betryals and whats not, and the change in thinking of ppl in the younger generation ( less conservative, high adaptability, high level of social exposure ) i strongly believe that nth is pure (e.g love) anymore...
am i being skeptical, stereotyping.. haha..
i dun care....

tired alr.. nights.

2008-03-07T00:46:00.001-08:00

its better to have loved and lost den never to have loved at all..

im glad tt i did my best loving u..
though im unreasonable, demanding etc.
at least im being me...
all the PMS, crankiness and whatever are a package of me
of cos including all the fun and laughter..

at the end of the day..
after all the struggles we have been through, i haven been able to prove what i have been to u in yr heart...
and i guess thats my fault...

but i wouldnt regret...
although i see it all coming..
i didnt regret..

finally at the end, u still couldnt make up yr mind..
whether u wan or dun wan to be tgt wif me...
i dun mind..
becos at least u have the decency to think tt u couldnt possibly say u wan when u are not sure..
so the other alternative has to be u dun wan..
and we settled for tt...

u said u dun wan to keep me waiting like a fool
seeing how much misery u could have put me through..
but haven i alr gone through tt??
what has to be said has been said..
what has to be done has been done..
no regrets..

right now all i wan to think is tt..
u dun wan
u dun love
u dun care
u cant be bothered...
becos it makes me feel easier.. alot easier to let it go...
also it makes me feel stronger to let go and move on...
because afterall the bottomline is life still goes on..

and this time i learnt alot too..
seeing the differences we have...
seeing how much we have to over come jus to understand..
now i know why some ppl were nv meant to be..
jus like us we were nv meant to be...

he said.. if we were meant to be we eventually will be..
but i nv believed in tt... never..

so what if im a fool, i followed my heart...
and i standby its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all

2008-03-06T09:36:00.000-08:00

finally... exams period is o-v-e-r..
we all cant fucking wait...
weetss~ play time play time play time..
i love to play...

though i missed PSOM but i fucking dun care... becos i dun mind the retest which gives me ample time to study for the 8 lectures..

for the folks who were worried,
im fine and kicking...
jus a lil easy more tired..
but wif more rest, im back to ass kicking...

i love my baby...
but ive hatched plan A against him...
i hope things work out real fine... =)

and i caught the leap years...
its nice...
really quite romantic and touching...
like awwww....
i bought a bag today too at 13 dollars... and im loving it...
( half price off the bag mind u )

baby is gonna be so busy working the nxt few days..
and im gonna miss him so much... =(

shopping anybody??
girls!!!
lol.. looking for NUDE coloured heels.. [e.g beige]
i love nude....

2008-03-03T03:02:00.000-08:00

PA's website is SCREWED... all of them...
whats the point of online forms when they cannot be sumitted..

and are there pills to control hormonal changes..
so that i will not be so cranky, so difficult to deal with when the period comes??!!
it always feels as if the entire world owes me!!!
wtf... i guess all women deserve to feel tt way when it comes to the time of the month!!
priviledge okay... u know how xing ku anot....

y must i feel so cranky all the time...
why must be so weak sensitive and become all soft and crazy..
ew i seriously dun like....

the period sucks big time..
and i haven started on the PSO..
yeah!!

2008-03-02T11:24:00.000-08:00

why does this road have to be so especially hard...
im too demanding..
im too sensitive...
im too overboard..
im jus too whatever..

god.. can there be an easier way out...
i dun wan to challenge anymore..
can i surrender for once.. jus this once....
surrender..
wave the white flat..
jus let me be screwed to the max...
let me be trampled upon..
mayb i enjoyed being screwed...
mayb i fucking have no personality...
can i have it my way for once??

please take pity on me..
i promise not to swear for one week...
if u allow me to surrender...

sidetrack
whats faith and trust all about....
when u dun care...

2008-03-02T10:45:00.000-08:00

its 3am and i still cant get to slp...
wtf..
paper is at 10am tml...
how ?!?!
bloody hell exams.. zzzz

cant remember since when i start to hate exams..
cant remember since when i start to feel weak and helpless..
i seriously cannot remeber!!!!
when the fuck....

im so going to screw the paper
because it jus seems like i know NUTS about the entire topic..
but when reading through the notes, its like i actually know them...
tell me im fucking screwed and im SOOO gonna fail....

are they exam jitters?
stress?
or signs of PMS...
i seriously dunno!!

seriously WTF!!!

2008-03-01T01:03:00.000-08:00

doing PSO now... zzz and i haven ssstttaaarrrttt on my SMK...
god please save me....
how to finish like tt...
and i really feel like going downstairs econ to grab chips to munch on.
i realise i fucking binge eat when it comes to stress!!!
BINGE EAT..

that makes ppl fat....
i dun wan to be fat...
ARGH....
got this super craving for bubbletea...
:(
tortila chips.. yummilicious~~

can we not have exams, stress or projects please...
i miss my boy whos working at the natas fair... =(

2008-02-29T10:28:00.000-08:00

its not the ownership that matters
but the level of importance
- as quoted from sharely

after mugging crazily for like 2.5 days of HR,
somehow the brain totally forgets about services..
i cannot digest...
totally cannot get what the PSOM book is talking about..
dang... im a service student.. what happened!!!

this shows a sign of retardness going on inside the brain..

WTF im getting retarded...
one down
two more to go...
i cant wait to get it over and done wif!!
hehe.. screw polytechnic!!!

i wanted to watch the movie the leap years..
because the adverts succesfully convinced me that the show will be a romantic one... i hope i wun be disappointed..
like for heaven's sake can some director please shoot smth decent for a change?!?!
recent movies are crapified...

felt seriously like puking today and i msged the boy..
he called to ask if i was fine...
awww..
he really CARES!!
im like such a biatch...
demanding.. bastard.. always complain and gossip...
oh.. dun forget the partner zhx...

anyway... FYI
poor zeeting fell sick and was sent to the hospital for fever that refused to subside..
this explains why she didnt turn up for HRM paper.. 38 plus plus degrees for like 2 days and nv recover after first visit to doc..
i make it sound like so serious..
but hmm hope she gets well soon..

well i learn how to spell the word exaggerate like finally..
either from the notes or from today's exam paper.. LOL
i know i talk alot...

anyway.. to re-emphasize;
ppl please help me earm some money.
by helping me sign tt stupid thingy..
LOL

loves u guys...
p.s. i love that boy..

2008-02-29T08:14:00.000-08:00

im supposed to blog about hr exams..
but i fucking no mood sia...
TIU ar...
13 marks so be it...
fucking module anyway... screwed to the max....

got anyone wan to help me???
sign a plan which can make overseas call..
jus sign only.. no need to make payment..
unless of cos u use...
please help help help me...
i BEG...
jus need some personal details.. like name ic.. etc..
i mean that is if u trust me u can help...
=)

today jus sucks... cos i feel like vomiting..

2008-02-28T02:32:00.000-08:00

i love that boy...

please tell me if tt pic is gross...

2008-02-27T09:22:00.000-08:00

i wan to catch
juno
spiderwick chronicles
rule no.1

but movie prices has hiked to impossible prices...
haha i dun wan to watch during weekends!!!
humph

2008-02-27T08:25:00.000-08:00

i suddenly realised..
there will be no more trips to south canteen to drink bubble tea, eat cai fan or the jap food and nomore buying of nuggets...

i suddenly miss sch so much...
wtf...

2008-02-25T23:37:00.001-08:00

eeww... i have got to say that exams sucks..
and i seriously have no mood to study!
not happy....

the body clock is screwed..
because i slp at times like 5 am 6 am and only wake up at 3pm..
i know this lifestyle is grosss...!!! omg...

anyway.. i have to blog about the stayover at ah girl's hse..
though i did not stay over iterally but it still feels like a stayover...
lol..

thanks girl for taking us in..
in the end yr hse is so messed up and dirty because of the dirt we produced!!!
lol.. tons of long hair on the floor.. etc...
eeww.

it was WAY fun...
lets do it agn... please...
wahahaha!!!
too bad KT missed it.. we must keep hao lian in front of her... make her angry...
p.s. call her micholas...

and at the end of the day, i must declare that i was the only NON-micholas of the bunch.. the rest were all micholas-es..
LOL...

weeee.. im loking forward to BJ lunch at... hmm upper thomsom road...
and i love my bun.. super alot.

2008-02-25T23:33:00.000-08:00

hey guys..
im sorry i locked up my blog for awhile...
because of some emotional turbulance..
and i feel tt i dun have to make the whole world go through it wif me..
made ppl irrinoyed by always constantly looking and hearing me rant on the SAME things...

i know u ppl cared... its jus tt i dun wan to bother u ppl...
but now im fine...
and i love you guys by being here alway for me...
thanks!!!
once agn.. im sorry... =)

thanks to: zeeting, sellman, ah girl and joanne..
special thanks to: hx and yw..

loves u all

2008-02-22T23:11:00.001-08:00

i wan to tell u that i love u i love u i love u i love u..

i miss u like crazy mayb..
u have become something which i avoid thinking about..
but this is wrong...

have u ever missed me like how i missed you during this one month which we didnt meet??
i really did tried to be uber understanding to u, u know...

i missed the way we hold hands...
i missed it when we dine tgt.. even though its jus macdonalds..
it made me happy like a kid....
i missed the way my hands rest on yr lap..
i missed the way u hold my hand..
i missed the way i hug you so tightly, never wanting to let go.. because i nv wanted you to leave me..
i missed it when we whisper closely to one another in cinemas..
i missed it when we kissed each other like we nv kissed b4 or like we will nv kiss again...
i jus really miss every big and small part of you...

i mean y we always remember the bitterness but not the sweetness of things...
mayb only i tasted the sweetness.
but how can u kiss someone with so much zest to not be in love??

remember when u asked me y i want to kiss u during new year?
i refused to tell u why..
its actually because i wan thing to be different in 2008 den in 2007...
i wan to be the first and only girl u would kiss..
wtf.. mayb i dream too much... hahaha

its so naive i would think in such a way...

right now i also dunno y like tt... u dunno whether u love me anot..
mayb u dun...
mayb u do...
oh.. this is like wtf again...

i mean in this situation.. its obviously naturally people would think tt you didnt care... and dun love..
becos to love is to have strong emotions, to care about, to dote on, to want to spend time with that somebody special..
isnt it??

weird... whats the problem...

2008-02-17T09:11:00.000-08:00

i wan to thank god for giving me all the frens i have found in my life..
and i promise i will treasure them...

i learnt..
and i will keep learning..
frens.. i love u guys too....

its hard to find frens with sincere heart these days..

2008-02-16T13:11:00.000-08:00

celebrated ming's and jh's bday..
keeping busy is a sure way to help ppl forget..
i realised that i could hold my liquor rather well as 2 glasses of martell on the rocks did not K.O me..
usually i wun choose to drink that much or even drink at all..
but today i jus wan to drown my sorrows..
its the most stupid way i know...
but... sigh..
i didnt manage to get high...
which is rather well...

and i reached home at 5..
new record.. if the parent gets to know about it..
im sure i wun live to get to see tml.

2008-02-15T09:13:00.000-08:00

nobody can cause you to be unhappy except for you yourself..
congratulations to me... for being the most unhappy person ever all thanks to myself..!
lol..

happy birthday Mr Tan Wei Ming..
and nxt up Miss Ng Jing Hui..
both being 21 this year.

how to describe the way i feel... hmm and if you ppl are interested to read this post you may continue.. because the below will jus be jibberish...
(intended for the purpose of closies.. )

actually i really give a fuck about who reads my blog.. and i hope really not alot of ppl..
because some thoughts i wan them to be private jus for the reference of closies and myself...
(alright im sorry my english sucks.. )
can i lock entries??

fuck.... i dun wan to blog anymore..

2008-02-13T09:31:00.000-08:00

not having good results doesnt mean you are stupid...
it jus means you have to work harder, harder..

not being good looking doesnt mean you are not beautiful..
it jus means you have other capabilities to show off..

not being the best in the things you do does not mean you are lousy..
it jus means that there are people who worked harder and therefore performed better than you..

failing once doesnt mean u are deemed to fail..
it jus means learn from it and dun repeat..

failing doesnt teach you to fear..
but to be brave to pick yourself from where u fall..

well.. anyhow.. people's views differ..
and being obstinate, i always insist that my believes were the ones to live life wif.. and i knew i was always wrong..
obstinance...
whatever..

these few days i keep having the feeling to wan to shit...
argh... i must shit tml in the afternoon....
and well happy valentines day to all those in love..
its a day worth celebrating.. =)

change topic...
got this some things which i found out.
and im super excited about it...
becos...
i pray that good thigns will happen from today onwards...
and may happiness nv ends...
bottomline, cherish whatever life has given us...
big things, small things...

2008-02-11T04:39:00.000-08:00

bo bian....
CNY is great...
met up wif lots of ppl...
and they all said i look prettier.. !!
lol sorry i hao lian..
but hey... jus tt i bother to look nicer..
not tt i really GROW prettier..

one more PSO to go....
jia you!!!
okay.. now let me rant..

i dun even know if i love u now..
im in conflict.. and i wanna die.. like every second...
right now u are watching CJ7 most prob wif yr guy frens...
but imagine the hurt i will feel if its some other girls...
i wan to know whr i stand in yr heart..
and where exactly do u stand in my heart..
because everyday it jus keep tearing a part off myself..
i wan to know the naked true feelings between us... =(
i really do...
i wan to see u.. i wan to know u.. i wan to understand..
i wan to connect and communicate with you..
jus you, u know...

2008-02-10T12:13:00.001-08:00

i really wan to know what it is...
sigh..
like WHAT?
lol if u get what i mean...

why love??

do i love??
idk...
pau jin kuang i really wished i knew the answer to us...

2008-02-05T03:08:00.000-08:00

this is the way you left me

im not pretending

no hope, no love. no glory

no happy ending

this is the way that we love

like its forever

then live the rest of our life

but not together

2008-02-05T02:21:00.000-08:00

sad..
i jus feel like running straight into yr protective arms.
but they were never there..
im stupid...
if we really can question why
den there will be no more uncertainties...
its a fact tt theres no why.. ( mayb sometimes )

haha.. i failed pratical..
but i think i did okay..
jus lack alot of practice..
i can improve.. and its nth to be ashamed of..

jus wondering..
who are the ones which will be always be there for me...
who are the ones who often let me fall back on when i need...
who are the ones which tries their best to make me happy...

thank you ah yong!!
(even though u might not know.)
but thanks for being there be it big things or small things..
i realised tt u are the friend which is always there..
no matter busy or not u will make time for me..

thank you jason lee..
(even though u never know)
but just when i needed company most,
mariculously u acc me..
(though u still sucks)

thanks you ziting..
for the support...
like though u stupid and naive..
haha..
wind blow u will die tt kind

friends who accompany you in times of need are really friends in need

thank you joanne
for volunteering to acc me to go temple..
(i swear b4 i pray i was scare like shit)

aww... mayb im just emo...
but hey.. i feel tt at least ppl cared enough...
thanks to all who wished me luck..

2008-02-04T07:35:00.000-08:00

im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...
im nailing it...

I MUST NAIL IT...

haha alright i kaopey.. everyday blog the same things..

I MUST NAIL IT!!!!

2008-02-03T08:17:00.000-08:00

i must nail it...
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
i must nail it..
I MUST NAIL IT!!!!

2008-02-01T08:50:00.000-08:00

imfreakingnothappy.

and what is happy's surname.?

its lee because happily..

sorry huixian i copied your lame joke!

hearkbreak kid.

2008-01-31T07:15:00.000-08:00

xim sibei tia..
and i dunno why..

sigh...
im so going to fail my TP...
no confident at all...
haha.. and today.. i almost knock down 2 bicyclist at the zebra crossing..
so hilarious...
i wan to turn into the main road.. so i wasnt looking in front... yeah...
i wish i killed them.. because some pedestrains jus bloody have no brains..
though its a zebra crossing, it jus means that we have to let you pass..
does not mean that there is a magical barrier to stop cars in time for you to cross..
bloody china woman... 2 some more... brainless.... motherfucker...

as i was turning, they were at the opposite of the road.

i hate china ppl.. wtf

as i was travelling in the bus today... fuck sia..

at 7 plus got so many banglas and cheenas la.. in the bus..

so its like fucking uncomfortable... the way they always like to squeeze..

AND they like to lift up their hands all the way.. so that ppl sitting can really smell their armpits.. fuck... like they really use super branded perfume...

they smell like they use cheapo body foam la... or some weird china brands...

fucking weird and NOT NICE smell..

WTF......

seriously..

argh.. mayb im jus in a grouchy moody today...

damn..

2008-01-27T22:33:00.000-08:00

sorry balan for listening to the radio, playing dota, gossiping and blogging in class..

i swear this module sucks.. and im going to fail.. zzz

wats with these facial expressions:
0.0
=.=
>.<
-.-

i dun understand.!

yeah.. down wif esvcs...
HR CRM SMK PSOM to go...
not forgeting TESTS...

shopping trip is okay only.. cos no money to buy... zzzzz sad
and the shoe no size... more sad
super nice can
oh ya..
i wear granny's top today..

2008-01-26T09:34:00.000-08:00

TP TP TP soon....

no time for projects...
aw... super scared..
2 projects due like nxt week.. i wanto faint.!
chiong!!
fri crm test..
must score...

current fav song: like you'll never see me again

2008-01-23T10:29:00.000-08:00

this is the first time someone did smth like that for me...
she hoax me into giving her my hse address by saying she wan to send me cny cards *cny cards -.-" *
and i actually believed her...!
but i had this warm feeling all over my heart and even till now..

wahaha...in the end, it turned out to be mac delivery... goodness..
mcspicy...
and since im taking photos to express myself better in this post,
i decided to educate the mass..

look at the skin of the mcspicy and the amount of fats tgt wif it..

so turn of la.. so thats y i ALWAYS remove the skin b4 i start on the burger..

and i guarantee that the burger is still tasty without the skin *i swear!!*

imagine yourself eating tt kind of skin..

ewww~~

big THANK YOU!! IRENE...

i cannot believe u did this for me..

and im so touched!!! like aww..

jus because i complained that im hungry

(but that always happens.. like every night)

she ordered a meal for me and PAID FOR IT...

3 dollars delivery charge..

and deny my offer to pay her...

jus because of this ima stickwitu..

THANKS!!

ya.. a pic of my manicured nails..

since im like up loading photo... shun bian also

im damn full and happy now..

thanks to irene lim hui fang... =D

2008-01-23T09:00:00.000-08:00

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn't feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I'd be wishing you were here
To be everything that
I'd be looking for
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me'
Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again
Oh Oh Oh

How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it's everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You're beside me
I'm so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me'
Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me
(see we don't really know)
Touch me like this is the last time
(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you'll love me
(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you'll never see me again
(like you'll never see me again)
Oh oh oh oh oh

2008-01-22T22:08:00.000-08:00

i manicured my nails cos i was too bored ytd..
now its red and wif crystals..
not very pretty..
but i think its good for first timers. and i will improve okay!

now i wanna have long long finger nails...
can u imagine how much time i spend on it..
3 layers of base colour and 3 layers of top coat..
excluding time to put the crystals on one by one..
wahah... im mad...

woohoo..
esvc and smk project down..
left wif CRM, HR, PSOM
hell yeah!!
nail them fast and i can play ....
remember entre ICA on fri and
CRM ICA nxt fri...

I WANTO SCORE!!!!
im so scare that my results sucked this sem.. awww....
1.8.. i wan a 2 at least... please... *shake head*
i swear im not gg to do that badly ever again!!

anyway.. everyone around me is gg overseas...
damn.. i guessed im stuck.. like agn!!!
=(
well... enjoy life as it is..
because life is good... =D

my fav song now:
1. dont lie - BEP
2. like woah - aly aj
3. hate that i love you - rihana neyo

2008-01-20T18:32:00.000-08:00

im so busted...
i realised i got thunder thighs...
LIKE OMG...
why me!! thunder thighs..

why me, why me, why me....

cannot sia....
STRESS makes ppl paranoid..

i wan to watch movie
but theres no one to acc me...
i miss u.. if i could..

sibei bu kai xin..

2008-01-19T20:03:00.001-08:00

i cannot stand weakness..
i disallow myself to be weak..

we have to learn from the pit falls we had in life..
and now i learned..
it doesnt exists?

i realised im inferior...
and it fucking sucks..

and kao peh kao bu...
how can i forget to attend my driving lesson..
ANGRY... f

2008-01-19T19:46:00.000-08:00

im so angry..
because the start of today sucks.. and i jus woke up..
FUCK....

i really feel like killing myself...
as in kill violently.. but not commiting suicide..
fuck.. so contradicting right...
no one would understand..

2008-01-14T09:18:00.000-08:00

si bei sian.. break out... zzz
FUCK...
my whole face chui.. zzz
cannot take it man... sia la...

2008-01-14T02:52:00.000-08:00

its lame to blog in sch..

PEH SENG YONG...
i sibei hungry now can.... !!
=(
u say latest 7 de loh... now its 6.56 and u are still working..
its not tt i wan to complain..
but seriously.. im fucking hungry since 4 and i waited for u!!
wao... this dinner is so hard to wait for..

and im bored too.. cos i got to wait for u to come and pick me.. while i have nth to do ...
YOU YOU YOU YOU... make me so angry..
(because a hungry MAN is an angry MAN...)

anyway lets sidetrack..
im fucking grossed out by (you know who)
LOLS....
check out the nxt episode okay.

sian.. i dunno whats causing my pimple breakout.. i think i got like 5 or more now.. sibei sian...
yeah.. countdown to graduation.
approximately less den 2 mths..

im sorry i love u..

2008-01-10T07:08:00.000-08:00

im super angry wif some ppl who are so helpful!!
like wth so helpful....
fuck u man stingy until like sai...
i will NV ever help you... zzz
asshole....

like wats wrong wif giving ppl a little help...
angry..

i got poor time management...
yeah.. 3 weeks 6 projects...
congrats!!!

and im missing you like crazy when its only the second day...

2008-01-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

i wan to go for cake baking lessons...
so that when its my baby's bday, i can bake a cake for him..

haha... on and off i still feel like puking..
and i jus eat really little..
=(
bahh!!!

i wanna watch body#19
though it will scare the shit out of me i know..
but i still wanna watch.. haha!!

my hairs getting long and thick...
y like near by no cinemas huh... places like hougang, compass, or serangoon..
nearest is like yishun, tampines..
i wanna complain to the MP...
nxt time he comes and shake hand wif us....
and the nxt election i think is in 3 to 4 yrs time..
good job hor.

ohh.. i met yiwen today. hah!!
and we jus slack la... i like to slack wif her..
exams in 2 mths time....
zzzzz
den bye bye nanyang

2008-01-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的 - 不能强求。
有时，紧紧抓住不属于自己的，迟早也是会从手中溜走的。

i stole this from juli's blog..
hmm.. why?
you yi dian tong

2008-01-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

i think im jus too free
so my mind wanders very often..
more often than desired..

and yes im thinking about you...
am i blind to your actions ?
or am i simply insane..

i guess i will just let it be in the end...
and this is when i hate myself for being WEAK..
i always hate weakness...
i hate weaklings...
argh...

if only i could hate you.

and if only i was the most glamorous girl..
g-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s *im hearing jasmine lee sing*
=D

2008-01-06T19:38:00.000-08:00

hey... dun try ham mayo from splash and deckers..
it sucked....

my lil bro was sick wif food poisoning for 3 days..
serious puking and shitting...
and i was laughing at his chump bucket...
and now i puked too in the chump bucket...
thats retribution u got for laughing at ppl...
LOL..

projects and test are killing me...
and i love my baby...
hes super caring.... =)

if one day my bf were to fall in love wif another guy,
i will welcome him to go wif 2 arms wide open...
thats because its not tt im not good enough..
but becaused his taste changed...
bottomline: if u wanna screw yrself up, dun drag others into it...

its hard to survive as a human in this world....

2008-01-04T01:37:00.000-08:00

im waiting for time to pass so tt i can get to work..
and as usual, im bored..
i decided to have astons for dinner today.. =)
with coke.. haha!!

i love coke..

what is my talent?
i think i dun have one.. and it makes me feels depressed..
LOL.. i know its lame.. but... having a talent is cool...
like u own a skill or smth..

i think my armpit popped a pimple.. haha
i know its gross saying it out.. but i love to be gross...
i have this craving for lots and lots of ice cream...
i will have them later while working. =)

i too have this craving for dimsum buffet.. oohh i cannot supress the urge...
yummy... =)
actually i jus crave for buffet.. REALLY ALOT...
i LOVE buffets... =)

i hope huixian get well soon..
so that the eating club can have a buffet outing soon..
we can kushin bo
dim sum
or international buffet

that is u all dun mind looking at the way i eat during the buffets...
*winks*

2008-01-02T02:28:00.000-08:00

im so happy because i did my project for 2.5 hours.. which is quite an achievement...
haha.. im such an idiot... lazy.. stupid.. ugly.. argh.. no link...

i hope i can finish it soon.. zzz SMK..
sucks..
deadlines:
crm ica 2 monday
smk ica 1 tuesday

swee... =)
life is so no life.. im bored everyday... i dunno y...
hahaha... somebody save me please...
yeah... im graduating soon...
wahaha i shall think of my birthday plans. =)
crazy girl.. its still like 3 months away.... LOL
sometimes i cannto stand myself even..

mayb i shall movie 6 today...
i love my baby. =)

2007-12-31T10:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all...
welcome 2008..
i have a really good feeling about it..

im so happy...
no new year resolutions for me this year.. hah!
turning 20 in 3 months time.. woah~~ scary sia... the BIG 2.. its nth.. but.. argh.. its old...

prior to new year, my phones network is fucking screwed..
it keep cannot send out mesages.. zzz
and i really like the phone w960i
with 3.2 pixel camera and walkman 8gb built in memory..
SWEE~

new year new year new year
i love you baby

2007-12-30T08:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE CHNG!!

2007-12-26T23:28:00.000-08:00

i cant stand yr fucking face.. damn
its so disgusting....
and you are way beyond childish...
worse then the worst animals i have ever seen...
ill breed...

2007-12-22T22:14:00.000-08:00

damn... i realised i have been neglecting my projects.. wif wat i dunno... zzzzz

my hse is receiving a painting job like tml!! and all the things i haven pack... omg... faint... who wan to keep me in their hse for 2 days 1 night..
so sudden la.. my mother..
omg.. like tt how i go countdown.. zzz
AWW...

2007-12-19T09:58:00.000-08:00

sometimes i feel confused by the things i see..
however..
"love is kind and patient.
it is never jealous
it is never resentment or force"
quote from a walk to remember..
good quote i would say...

i hope im not stupid.. i really hope i aint..
aw.. everyday is jus a wondering day..
wonder about this wonder about that...
sian..

2007-12-19T09:45:00.000-08:00

this post is going to be rather violent..

fucking knn..!!!
i am damn sway... to the max
i suspect i have been cursed somewhere in my life... knn..!!

KAN DULAN %#@%^&*@
a stupid moth is on the wall in front of me now and i HATE moths!!!! fuck it...
i cut my hand today... forget it..
scratch my leg... nvm..
zouk fucking full hse!!!! omg
thanks hor...

i dun understand y lucky things nv happen to me... omg!!!
SWAY GU...
fuck......
what the fuck.....
y i so sway...... damn it...
knnnnnnnnn
fuck dulan.... tmd!!!

damn it argh

2007-12-18T05:23:00.000-08:00

kao peh... i wan to gossip loh!!!

so gossip.....
well anyway... i rotted at home on sat and i still haven went to orchard..
i jus did my nails.. which look fugly...
yeah im so excited im clubbing tml... like yes!!!
club club club

uber happiness.... weet...
its not tt im a chiongster.. but clubbing occassionally jus take some stress out of my life..
and kao peh... i dun have to talk like tt in my blog... argh.. weird

im jus bored.. aww.. it rained a little today... thus i cant go ECP... actually i can.. but rain..
get it??

si bei sian... mayb no fate.. everytime i wan to go got smth on...
dulan!!

oh ya.. i caught warlords... its nice.... OOOHH... really... and im hungry..

2007-12-14T08:09:00.000-08:00

today is a surprising day (for joanne)...

im supposed to be blogging this ytd.. but den i dunno wats the actual plan.. so i did nth.. till jo confirmed wif me today in class...

LOL again we went to eat... at peoples park... SWEE
I LOVE FOOD....
i dunno y but everytime out wif the club is hell lots of fun.. im so glad we managed to meet for 3 consecutive weeks...
thats LOVES... really.!!

and OMG..... guess wat... we saw legendary candida...
omg omg omg omg omg
and right now i still cannot get over!!! CANDIDA.... OMG la...
like finally..

and guess how much jo's dress cost... $250 alright... and she bought 2.. i realised why their posts are without pics... becos.. i have them... LOL like 2 only... argh.. wait for jo to upload.. i lazy...

gourmet club gourmet club...
loves.. going bedok nxt.. swee...
ECP.. tuesday.. i cannot wait!!!!

2007-12-11T08:07:00.000-08:00

3 days to holidays..
GREAT

did i mention they we have to :
1. hand in SMK ICA1 first week jan
2. hand in CRM ICA2 first week jan
3. PSOM written ICA1
4. e-services ICA2
5. hand in entreprenurship report & presentation
6. start on HR ICA2
7. Start on CRM ICA4

THANKS... thats the amount of work....
so WHERE exactly is the holidays...?
well i dun care...
ima going :
1. ECP cycling - BJ
2. Club hop - BJ girls
3. Xmas countdown - zouk
4. kushin bo - BJ
5. watch warlords , golden compass , national treasure book of secrets , im sure there are more.... LOL
6. orchard - lightings
7. vivocity - shopping and viewing stand
8. esplanade - so long didnt go alr!! and i wanna take pic wif merlion la..
9. shop at raffles.
10. maxwell - like again!!
11. sentosa - luge, skyride, songs of the seas. - eh i seriously wanna go la...

SWEE LA!!!! ~
how can i be not excited.. haha
i must remember to do all those things!!
IM SO HAPPY AND EXCITED!!!!
yeahhh (non-stopping)

~~ yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah ~~

aww... yiwen.. i wish u dun have to go to thailand during the christmas!!
damn... now whos going to countdown!!!
allow me to go crazy... =)

lovessssssssss as in ("v")

2007-12-09T08:24:00.000-08:00

eh.... today is sunday...
haha okay lame..
L.A.M.E

charlene.. i cant wait to see yuexin's short hair!!!!!
and... yes we will support her when she 'volunteer' to lung the tree back for u.!
LOL...

aww.. i wish my creative juice could flow non stop while i do my projectS
(note wif capital 'S')
and i hate them... SERIOUS..
yeah.. holidays soon..
im clubbing on eve i guess.. and i STILL haven
1. go orchard see see
2. buy any presents
3. shop.
4. feel festive
5. GO SENTOSA... (i wan to go!!!)

okay.. stop complaining.. and stop blogging in this lame manner..
hhaa i guess im really crazy....
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
will any kind soul PLEASE pass me the pics for IVP... argh..
im like sick of waiting..
I WAN TO SEE THEM!!!!
lol...
and i spend my sat and sun wif some meaning...
im glad...
i finally went to see ubi kembangan played.. and damn it..
coach went for holidays...
-.-"

but nvm la.. see my other frens... quite cool also..
i saw ELAINE NG LI JUAN....
laughs out loud... shes........................................................
b divs champion okay.. LOL
yeah.. and i sort of finally hang out wif ya ya and yan yan... LOVES (yaya only)...
yan u understand right... LOL
later she jealous.. haiz.. v diff to please one...
but i like!!!! yummy...

2007-12-06T07:11:00.000-08:00

if i could have all the xoxoxoxox in the world
i will be a happy lady.. LOL

i finally went to maxwell food center wif eugene jo and hui xian today.
and I LOVE IT!!!!

we ate gyoza, hao jian, spagetti, hum jim peng, rojak, popiah, beef noodles, hokkien noodles, chicken rice, oyster cake, dao hui..
i swear its really quite alot...
and oh my goodness.. i dunno if im too hungry or that the food is really good..
bottomline: i LOVE food...
hahaha... eugene and jo complained that i look gross when i eat.. and HEY..
thats not true...
eat no need yi tai one...

after food we went to shop around.. and loves.. i bought 2 pairs of shoe and a dress...
damn.. i feel like killing myself becos i still have 2 brand new dresses.
haven worn.. in the cupboard..
WTF....

my biceps are aching.. must be due to the gym and push ups i done ytd..
well is it hard to start anew?
i love to stay in my comfort zone...

2007-12-04T20:35:00.000-08:00

am i being too naive to only believe??

for all that you ppl know.. jin kuang and i are progressing very fine..
and i feel that hes different.. smth in him has changed... i sort of knew it..
what would girls ask for from the boys that they like?
i only ask for his complete heart and honesty..
SERIOUS... though i always rant on how much i wan my guy to be handsome and rich..
haha.. i know im not that material...
is it the way i behave?
i feel that tons of ppl thinks that im material.. well i really dun care about your opinions..

but...
i jus found out that the life i had was not wat i think it is...
my dearest haven been truthful to me all the time..
i know its for my own good as things will be kept simple and less complicated..
i will be kept happy...
he will come for me when the time is right.. and i dun mind waiting.. really!

thing wun be so hurtful if u had told me the truth...
i can accpet everything... EVERYTHING....
and u know that i will always believe you no matter wat u said to me...
have it ever occured to u how much it takes to believe in such a way..?
ouch... it hurts..

i really feel stupid.... u are so right....

well on the other hand if u told me.. i cant predict how i will react as well...
i guess this time i really lose myself...
im not angry
im not sad
im not happy...

all this explains...

2007-12-02T04:34:00.000-08:00

NCHS BALLERS ATTENTION:

outing in THIRD WEEK OF DEC!
keep yrself free.. i will confirm the dates wif u guys ASAP..
trust my efficiency...

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. its for NCHS OLD GIRLS..
2. eh.. the 1988 batch.. zi dong zi dong...
dun make me go and catch u... come and find me.. to tell me u coming or not..
3. TAG ME, MSG ME, MSN ME, EMAIL ME.. to confirm yr attendance
whatever... DO INFORM me though....

whoever... help spread the word.. DO....
thank you for your kind attention. =)

2007-12-02T03:39:00.000-08:00

pet phrases for the week:
1. awwww
2. kao peh
3. dun make me
4. teacher she bully me
5. you force me to .....

hahas... i cant wait for irene to send me the photos we took yesterday..
i swear its retarded... and my niang zi... omg.. she force me..!!
wahaha.. dun tell sellman about it...
other den sellman and hui xian being willing to scratch my backside for me..
i need to find some MORE!!!! LOL....

weets... nxt week, yaya yan yan and me shall ice cube.. jas u free too??
=D so lovess! hmm how about thursday?!

i CANT WAIT FOR XMAS PARTIES!!!!!
~SWEeeEeEee~

2007-11-30T08:18:00.000-08:00

huixian finally made a collage... so i went to steal it...
haha... got to admit its rather nice...
thats BJ night out at sahara bar or smth... and u can see Jat wif the shisha...
mind you ppl.. i was the only one there who did not TRY..... =) *proud!*
zouk after tt wif ziting.. i forget if i ever mentioned.

anyway... its friday... and about time for the weekly updates...
monday... i think i came home and slack.. i cant remember wat i did...
tuesday went to play ball at braddell heights..
is was okay only...
wed.. hmm got driving.. after tt i head home..
thurs was dinner wif hui xian jo and ujin at yishun..
i swear we were fucking hungry... haha... and ordered like hmmm~ huge amounts of food... weets... but it was SHIOK...
maxwell market soon wif them... i look forward.!
after tt dated my darling boy... =)
and i shall leave out the juicier details..
=P
oh... and i got to say... enchanted wasnt tt nice after all.. its was hmmm.. ya..
got to agree princess did look old..
look at her wrinkles....
fri was netball AND beef horfun at amk... weets...
i love...

2007-11-28T04:35:00.000-08:00

for crying out loud...
damn... i think im feeling terrible now...
i feel like going to zouk
i feel like going for a movie
i feel like i dunno...
do i jus feel like seeing u??
i dun understand... myself.

and im struggling at thinking of wat to say..
like wtf...
today is not my day...

2007-11-27T07:29:00.000-08:00

i feel so tired... haha.. like physically and mentally..
now i understand y i used to AWAYS skipped classes...
cos playing ball is so exhausting.. haha.. BUT still i need to force myself to go to class and all...
hmm if other better players can do it, so can i!!! fucking determined..

i feel so lousy when i play can...
i hate this feeling of lousy-ness
IM LAN... ARGH!!!!!!
hahahahaha...

and i forgot the main purpose i blogged... SWEE....

2007-11-25T22:02:00.001-08:00

i think i tripped over a rock today...
note: not hit a rough patch. but jus trip over a rock.

im having such a bad mood..
AND IT RAINED!!!

haha... alright i know no links....
mel and di are going to japan for 1 week...
oh im envious...
i still love paris though...

weets... christmas shopping soon im happy...
and i cant wait to catch enchanted... cos i so love... =D

pau jin kuang: we have listssss of things to do tgt..
im so looking forward....

i swear i hate e-services... its fcuking boring.....

2007-11-23T19:07:00.000-08:00

second week of sch has ended..
so fast... and tons of work undone..
haha they are projects... ohh.. i hate!!

anyway.. this week hasnt been very meaningful..
had class gathering at clarke quay..
WHICH only 8 ppl turn up..
haha jit officially become the PSK.. lol
it was rather cool yo...

well after gathering, ziting and i head zouk..
it was ultimate..
hehe!! i love zouk...
and i finally clubbed wif yiwen.. weets...
omg.. highlight... i saw chek tong at zouk.. and i wan to faint..
damn u yiwen... made me dance near him.. it was so akward for me la..

friday was another sports day... this time we were all damn shag..
and i dunno why.. lol..
i hurt my little finger... and now its obstructing my typing....
aww....

countdown.. 31 days to Xmas... LOVES...

p.s.
charlene.. if u still been reading here, i wan to find out wats wrong wif u..
its been for like a long time u've been depress.. over diff matters..
cheer up... u are someone whom i know to be very optimistic... =)
okay... i'll be here for u..

2007-11-20T04:39:00.000-08:00

i wish i had more things to do so that i will be kept busy..
i shall start on my ICAs... yes...
hmm studious eh... everyone has already met for projects...
but me.. still sort of like no progress..
hmm i guess its alright...

and discussion topic of the day...
having a big ache once or having occasional aches..
yes.. please feel free

2007-11-20T04:29:00.001-08:00

CRAP.... junkified...
pile of shits...

i should jus go and DIE....

2007-11-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

in life people meet for reasons..
friends do not last forever however when path cross,
we learn lessons.. many and different..

the fren you always hang out wif may not be the friend who will be there for you.
amazingly, the fren u might not have fun wif is the one whom rides all waves wif you.

loves...
jia you ppl!! =)

2007-11-15T06:46:00.000-08:00

hmm did i mention sch has started?
and i think tt workload is heavy..
though it feels like we haven learn anything yet
but projects are piling up..
yes... first week , first day of sch...
damn it...
i dun like... =(

anyway.. went shopping wif ziting ytd..
and we both OVERSPENT.... why the hell did it happen...
if only we can keep like buying.. haha.. and the balance remains...
after tt beowulf..
i have to say that the movie is not what i expected it to be.. ;(
angelina jolie only come out like for 5 mins...
and shes fucking hot.!
damn.. 5 MINS... imagine.....
and its sweet to be out wif u

2007-11-11T09:07:00.000-08:00

priscloo@hotmail.com says:
can u do me a favour...
priscloo@hotmail.com says:
kill me.
layman terms- -this is MADDNESS.! says:
ooh great.
layman terms- -this is MADDNESS.! says:
no problems
priscloo@hotmail.com says:
please do it like asap

see... this is wat i call love... =)

2007-11-11T07:18:00.000-08:00

sometimes i read at the things other ppl wrote and i think...
hmmm.. why...

why things happen the way they do...
haha... i guess its a weird question..
i wish im not so curious....
saves alot of ache..

anyway... had my first driving lesson today...
was quite fun but abit boring.. becos i keep doing the same thing... driving in the same place for like 1 hour... zzz
keep turning left.. haha hmm stepping the clutch..
woah.. i swear the accelerator is sensitive...
i had a hard time wif that...
still i hope i can pass fast...
=)

its fun to be learning something new...
and i hope i dun miss you...

2007-11-10T10:02:00.000-08:00

i dun understand y bebe likes to read books that are related to lost boys and dogs..
LOL...

work is fucking tiring today... and im hungry!!
and i think the time of the month is nearing...
cos i can sense the signs...
e.g bad temperament..

LOL....

yeah... and first lesson tml... =) im tired le...
stay strong...

2007-11-09T10:03:00.001-08:00

schs starting in 2 days time.. ooh..
im rather excited.. last sem...
haha it caught me by surprised that i actually look a little forward to it..
haven been using the brains in like 3 mths time.. aw..
i bet we are all going to be rather slow... LOL..

weets... bought a RED bag.. did i mention, for the start of sch...
and im loving it... ROXY that is..

holidays is kinda long.. and i haven had the money nor the khakis to chill daily.. thus explains the boredom..
weets.. i hope i can club wif wen on the 21st....
hehe.. not to forget... sakae sushi wif the BIG eaters.. IM looking forward...

u promised me lots of things but which did u actually fulfill?
see promises are meant to be broken..
one month ago u said you would stop playing games. becos its the start of a new term..
one month later im still waiting for u to stop playing..
mayb u had the effort..
but i jus wasnt good enough for you to wan to do more for....
or mayb u jus knew how to talk...
see lies.... i cant say im not disappointed...
more promises about movie dates, beach outings, romantic dinners.
forget it... how do u expect me to believe you... NO WAY..

2007-11-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

everytime i build a wall,
everytime you will come and crash it down..

and its my fault..
i wish i could tell u many things in yr face..
but it doesnt helps..
in the end i wun be strong enough to push you all the way out of my circle...
i thought i was begining to suceed...

but these fews days..
YOU jus make me fall again...
im not sure if im ready to lose you totally..
you know...

i dun know what you wan at all.. its weird...
and i hate it
i wish i had more control over my feelings...
becos my heart is all confused... it dunno how it should feel anymore...

2007-11-08T10:02:00.000-08:00

haha im bored..
anyway today is deepavali..
and im happy...
niangs went to candy's hse and we went braddell heights to play ball

AND i saw jing there so qiao..... so we 1 on 1.. haha
its fun... =)
after balling.. we went back to candy's bathe and went out to eat zi cha.. its average lo. okay only.. haha..
and den mahjong.. it was fun becos hui xian dan diao bai ban!!
i lose also dun wan to give her..

song bo....
haha...

well... in life we have to keep learning..
u may not have noticed but we have to learn things like letting go and moving on..
its important you know...
we need to get rid of things that makes us unhappy... ppl...

wats wif the diao lai diao qu leh...
wo bu ming bai.... =(!

2007-11-06T07:50:00.000-08:00

GET OUT RIGHT NOW
ITS THE END OF YOU AND ME

i think my life is worse den an empty shell..
i cant see the htings i have.. they are becoming blurred in these recent days..
mayb i dwell too much on things that are negative..
but what are th epositive things in my life i can think about..
looking back i think i have nth..
achieved nth..
its so useless....
and everyday i only complain about it... i didnt do anything about it... omg
see.. i really feel like killing myself for it..

im worse den a bummer....

2007-11-06T02:47:00.001-08:00

i dun understand wats wif humans..
saying one thing and doing another..
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK...
boys and girls alike..

i mean to say i do such stuff too..
omg.. contradicting....

i guess im finally sick of waiting for u
sick of you....
damn it...
i hate you... pjk

2007-11-05T09:48:00.000-08:00

the theory about promises not meant to be kept made me feel pessimistic..
lol... so in other words does it means that when people say something which they will do in future e.g i will wash the clothes tml. means a lie.?

isnt it funnily interesting

and interestingly im not happy like now....
i feel luan!
becos of uncertainties..
i dun like uncertainties...
and i guess im keeping alot of secrets...

2007-11-04T10:08:00.000-08:00

hmm.. 3 days?
im wondering wat u have been up to..
haha..
i hope ypu missed me.. like how i missed you..
have been practising my dota for like hmm dunno how long i guessed i have improved.. nxt im taking on insane bots...
its lame to play against computer.. but thats how some people kill time..

tml is monday and exactly 7 days left b4 sch reopens.. aw... i seriously cannot bear that fact..
see you soon...

as yiwen taught me..
you should be surprised when someone kept a promised made to you..
because promises are actually not meant to be kept.
the are not meant to come true..
simply becos humans cannot anticipate what will occur in the future.
thats cool..

mayb i should not believe in you at all..
xing hui yi leng